Saturday, February 27, 2010

It's a .......

Well, we have confirmed that little baby is a BOY!!! We announce that Barron Waller Rosson will be making his debut on or around August 11, 2010!

We just got back from the trip last night. Still recuperating. I believe my body is purging Mexico as i type. ugh! In any event, I'll post details on the trip with pictures (Brett took over 3000 pictures with this new camera). So tomorrow will be updates.

Thanks to everyone for the congrats and well wishes in the recent weeks. We're so blessed to surround ourselves with such wonderful friends.

Sunday, February 21, 2010

Secret Envelopes

Well, the day is finally here, we are headed south of the border in the morning for our long overdue vacation. Brett delegated his packing duties to me, finally, and I'm happy to say so b/c I don't have to watch him swirl around this house like an impatient tornado.

We have with us the "precious" envelope of Baby's Rosson's real gender. As soon as we get to our resort, and I have a fruity drink in my hand and staring at the ocean, we will open and then release the info the world to know what he or she is. Stay tuned tomorrow!

As for updates on dad, he's still managing and alert. The facility he was suppose to move to Friday, denied his admittance bc he could walk too far (125 feet) . They felt he was too strong for their hospital. As a matter of a fact nearly ALL the hospitals denied him b/c of this walking business. In the end, Hospice Woodside has agreed to take him hopefully tomorrow. (waiting for a bed to open up, sadly). This is the same facility that we had my grandfather at 2 years ago. Its an amazing facility with lots of peace and calmness to it. Very lush and tropical. This also happens to be the very same facility that the famous Terry Shivo case took place at. Since Terry Shivo's passing, the facility changed many admittance policies, prohibiting long term patients from being in this specific location. This location in a 2-3 week facility now. Dad's been busy working on a book of sorts, writing down all this thoughts of needs and wants of end of life patients in his condition. I think he's referering to having personalized meals for his feeding tube, rather than the canned non flavored instant liquid meals. Nonetheless, he's probabl a good voice for people like himself that aren't nearly alert as he. I look forward to reading this thoughts one day.

in any event, he is really looking forward to moving, hopefully tomorrow. He's been in Moffitt Cancer Institute Hospital for 3 weeks today. I'd be ready to go too.

Well, Hasta Luega for now.

Thursday, February 18, 2010

Mama said there'd be days like this...

Brett and I are on the flight home from tampa. I had to say goodbye this morning to my father. Mama said thered be days like this, just didn't know this soon or how hard.

Dad is fully alert, feeding himself thru the peg and even making requests for certain flavors of shakes. I mentioned a malt flavored one and was very excited. This morning he made a request for 3 malts: chocolate, pineapple and caramel. So that takes care of breakfast lunch and dinner. I'm glad it made him happy. I think its funny though he asks for flavors, even though he never tastes them. Oh well, makes him happy.

His communication is easier than I thought. I was able to read his lips easily and what he spoke too fast, he wrote down. It was also a nice resource reading over his messages he's written while I left yesterday to today. I made him a chart of common things to ask for so he can point. His speech will come back. He was able to say the word "noise" yesterday even! What I could understand, Brett got bc apparently it is a "man thing". Was actually quite funny how brett and dad could communicate using far less words and no paper. I guess men can care for eachother. Just kidding!

He's out of ICU and in a really nice large corner room with bright windows. He said the past 2 nights he has slept the best he has in 3 weeks. Very well rested and well nourished. They plan to move him to a rehabilitation hospital in the next couple of days. Its a hosp that is specifically for respiratory rehabilitation. Teaching him to learn to do more actives on a daily basis, care for his trach and speak. The hosp will still be in Tampa (its an hour drive each way with traffic where he is now too)

There is so much about a trach I didn't know. That its an actal tube shaped like an upside down "L" that connects his lungs to expell. He won't be able to smell or taste or eat actually. He is able to cough but it comes thru the trach. The care required is much more tremendous then I ever thought though.

My dads secretary from NJ flew in yesterday and more family and friends fly in all next week. I hope it doesn't become overwhelming, but he asked for his razor and shaving cream, I suppose to freshen up for the visitors.

All in all, it was a horribly sad day with lots of tears saying goodbye on his end and my end. There weren't so many words to say, we knew them.

Were headed back home, tired no doubt but we are looking forward to tomorrow... Baby Gender Day! We won't be announcing until we return from mexico, but if anyone has any guesses or wagers, carry on.

Peace be with everyone, especially Dad.

Monday, February 15, 2010

Dad's Update

Updates on Dad. Got to Tampa yesterday, Brett arrives tomorrow. Dad was having a bad day yesterday. He was very labored in his breathing, like when you choke on water and your trying to revive yourself, was his breathing. Hes very thin. He was alert and stubbornly up and going to the bathroom. He was very focused on A to B and his surgery (Trachescopy) that was today. Liz and i stayed til about 5:30pm. Today was worse than yesterday. He wasn't allowed to feed himself (through the peg tube) since yesterday so his energy was very, very low. He barely could hold his eyes open. His breathing was very labored. He is down to 84 pounds. Overall 200% worse then yesterday. He was miserable, knew it and wanted to feed himself. His surgery was suppose to be at 10:30 am, and at that time they moved it to 1:30. At 1:30, the Anesthesiologist came in, said his Sodium levels were too low for surgery, so they re-ran his labs for sodium and his gas levels in his blood to see if the need of the surgery outweighed the risk with his sodium levels and it did. The need won, so they wheeled him to the OR, and only used local anesthesia and he was awake for the trachescopy.

I go to see him about 5:30pm in ICU. He was 1,000 times more peaceful than 2 hours prior. He was breathing on his own thru the trach with no oxygen. He was sleeping pretty heavy, but woke up for a few seconds. He motioned he felt better when I asked. He was able to give me a kiss when we left. I begged the nurse to feed him at their first opportunity.

From here, the trach will allow him to breath more comfortably for the duration. the doctos said that now the tumor that is wrapped around his choroid artery (has been since the begininig) will eventually cut off the artery and then he'll pass. After being here, I know it will be much sooner than later, sadly. I'm just glad he is resting comfortably at least now.

We appreciate all the prayers and calls everyone has done. This is a very sad time, but have enjoyed (and even laughed, thank you Teddy and Aaron) of having all the friends and family be so supportive with each call or visit. Will updates tomorrow or next day. So thankful Brett arrives tomorrow. Kisses to everyone.

Tuesday, February 9, 2010

A sad day

Update. Sad news, very sad news. Dads prognosis was bleak. The doctors met as a group this morning and decided that all options have been exhausted and we should be looking at quality of life left with us. They have recommended a trachea to help his breathing to help prolong his life. Dad will be making a decision about this soon. Otherwise, we will make him comfortable and support him for the duration. We appreciate everyones thoughts right now. A truly sad time.

Refocus

It's been over a week, sorry fans. I managed to come down with my first ailment since being pregnant, although not pregnancy related. A nice cold. In all seriousness, I haven't had a cold in over 5 or 6 years. This one has put me down for the count because of the little baby. I worked half day Friday, 2 hours yesterday and will go in half day today. 

Many prayers are needed today. Not because my cold (although, well appreciated). Today is a very important day for my dad. As many of you know he's been battling throat cancer since last April. Things took a dramatic turn last week and thats where my funneled prayers begin. We wait today to hear news about the latest complication from the cancer: essentially, his pipes. When people say, "oh my food went down the wrong pipe" thats exactly what we are dealing with here. His "wrong" pipe is wide open and not shutting as it should, which is causing a plethora of problems.It became damaged during radiation and explains his continued symptoms without relieve.  As far as we understand, its not repairable. Todays outcome tells us what our options are with end, and neither are good. We're battling phenomia, kidney infections, aspiration and cancer. Its a sour mix with sour results. Prayers for dad, please.


Onto happier things, my focus. We are ANXIOULSY awaiting our trip to Mexico in 13 days. We haven't been on a vaca since our honeymooon, so we're calling this the "babymoon." I can't wait to feel the warm sun and the warm water hit my face and arms. We hare headed to Tulum Island, about an hour south of Cancun. Small little boutique style resort. 76 rooms! We love the smaller the better. Have I told you I packed yesterday?! Yes'em! Will be gone for 5 days. It's really been keeping Brett and I going the past couple of months, something to look forward to. I thank God for Brett everyday. Hasta La Vista Baby. Will post updates about Dad later today.

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